Yesterday & Today

I posted 100 random things about me on March 7th 2007, that's more than a year ago.
When I read it over again. I disagree about a few things, and I'm going to write it off my list :)

1.i'm used to think i am special
2.i know i am better than anyone else, yea right..
no, i'm happy to admit i'm just about average
3.i have something more, always
let's just say most of the time
4.i am the best to have around, in like no way
i'm non conversationalist
5.things are deep and complicated with me,
yup i'm Keeping It Simple Stupid ;) so much relieving.. it's time to simplify
6.please don't surprise me with uncertainty, it'll drive me insane
i'm glad i took the slow lane this time. enjoying the whole process and gaining so much more than i thought i could. life is a lesson my dear and i learned mine well.
7.please don't tell me to wait, i'll go anxious and grow curious
i've waited 3 years alone, 10 years of failing relationship stories, and 24 years to be with him. my precious.
8.definitely definite, no promises for vain
no promises but no regrets at all. i'm gonna say it again, i'm glad i took the slow lane. not knowing where the journey ends equals the gratitude expression for every little delightful surprise i'm receiving. and it's been an amazing journey. alhamdulillah, i made it safely.
9.if you won't give me exact example, i'll guaranty you
with 10 prominent worst things could happen
can you take it as my effort to stop cursing?
10.i'm a master of excuses
i still am ;p
11.go fuck yourself
i believe everyone deserve their privacy :)
12.i'll get what i want when i want it, no point in lining-up
but i gain too much patience now
13.yes, that means i'm a vicious hunter
i'm a soft spoken and well mannered hunter hehe
14.oh please, i'll hurt tease you with devious words, no need asking
the word is tease, i meant no harm
15.it's obvious with me, i can't pretend
16.smart-ass is my best feature for vengeance
17.treat me nice and i'll treat you nicer,, when i need you
18.all of you just my petty criminal
19.i'm calm and confident but you don't wanna be around me when i explode
i uhh,,won't burst on you. just don't stare at me. i can cool down if you just let me, leave me alone?
20.backstabber? a sounds alike idiom
let karma do it? i'm busy with life atm ho ho ho merry christmas
21.dare to be troubled? hell yeah, bring it on
cause i'm just good at being bad,, if i'm in the mood. but it rarely happens nowadays. maybe i change?
22.somewhat peculiar is one helpful trait to be centered
i didn't mean to be weird, it's just that i'm born strange xp
23.i'd like things to be arranged and oredered first, no scrambling me around
24.love me love me cause i'm lovable,,teehee,,love to be loved
I AM I AM I AM,,i'm looooved :D
25.maybe i'm not telling you but i'm going to show you 'cuz
26.action speaks louder than words
yes yes,,i love you more than that :D you might not heard it so often, but i'll show you. no worries ;)
27.second chance is for friends only
28.play it nice, play it wise
29.truth hurts but that's what i like doing
what can't kill you makes you stronger baby. so don't be afraid to face the truth
30.i'm steady as the wind blows, bring barometer next time
just communicate with me, it's easy.
31.when you're tied up in some dark room, don't come crying for me ok?
like i care
i'm not much of a caring person. but i'll be there if i'm needed.
32.driffs draffs, cut to the end. what was the point?
33.do your best while you still have time doing it.
i don't like looking back to the past and regretting
34.what's done is done. care for another try?
in games maybe,,
35.i fix what's need to be fixed. another things broken,
find another person to fix it.
36.be aggresive, be mean, be greedy, be exaggerate
= be passionate
be passionate
37.colorful lies to imply the black and white truth?
anybody but me
38.silence is golden baby
39.do what you want not what they tell you to
40.i'ts the same with living your own life not others
41.harsh,, harsh,, i am raw.
42.i care about me and only me :D
well i have people i REALLY care about
43.decency is what i have not
or thats what i thought
44.mind your own business, back of you nosy
45.you better learn mind-reading, you'll need it to deal
..with me
just be patient and talk to me :)
46.watch that stare, you're such an understated, get it?
or if you don't have the guts to deal with me, just don't get irritated ok?
47.i have no time to nod up and say hello
means i'm such an ultimate ignorant!! helloo..
48.it's not my purpose to be lazy, i'm just enjoying my time
49.i'm a superjoy, a person who really love this life as
a vivid image
50.i can inspire you so follow me
51.globally changing, don't you just stuck in that moment
52.life goes on, haven't you heard enough?
53."what can kill you, makes you stronger"
i said that before, i say it again. a fighter like christina said
54.drastic dramatic
no no no no more drama for me, had just about e.n.o.u.g.h.
55.tears are easy to produce, so much drama in me
no no no no more drama for me, i'm just easily touched and moved. quite sentimentil really.
56.ups and downs, highs and lows, i'm a rollercoaster ride
ride the wave baby,, rock and roll
57.more more mooore,somewhat addictive ;D
moan baby moan
YEAH YEAH YEAH i'm good i'm good i'm good
58.seductive/provocative/trouble maker? same meaning
59.there's a fix monotone part, static as the metronome ticks
60.you can say what's on me eclectical,, because my core is fixed
61.don't judge a book by it's cover. lame?
well, time changes. what's used to be good is not so good anymore
time ripped it off
62.the worlds used to spin around me, it's not like that anymore
63.i take time to think and wait, patient contradiction!
64.i am not that special, just a mediocre..corrected..
65.boasting and bragging is not that fun anymore
66.strongwilled, with a point
67.don't just give, take..
receive is much more appropriate
68.you can't lose what you never had
69.what you need maybe just around the corner,
all you need to do is just turn your head around
he is around the corner! :D :D :D and i did turn around
70.happiness waving for you but you can't see it because
you don't want to
71.just a little effort matters, what's small to you maybe big to others
72.pride is a virtue
and patience is always is a virtue, my friend
73.being nice is no nonsense.
sometimes talking nonsense is a nice thing to do haha
74.don't think to prejudice, nothing good will gain
75.love is not blind
if you let your mind leads your heart where to go :D
76.against all odds is currently a life's track
77.being extraordinary takes extra attempt
78.practice makes perfect
79.don't think you know, 'cause nothing finite
80.everyone deserves a second chance, including you
81.happiness isn't what you buy it's something you make
82.there's good in anyone eventhough it's different in size
83.no pain no gain, concurrenttt
84.twice harder, twice better gt loh
85.practice makes perfect maaan
dood,,i said that before!! sorry for the repetition.
86.the smooth criminal
87.someone not to mess around
88.knowledge = money = power
"knowledge is power but character is more"?
i'll add money for everything
89.liberal plus concervative, care nontheless? byfar...not ortodoks
90.love being sarcastic
they said, a sarcastic person is a caring lover. i am :D
91.cheap not easy.
you know what tori says, assholes are cheap today
cheaper than yesterday
92.i am bipolar xD dualism controversy of this and that
93.just do what i told you, catch & go
controlling much?
94.you shouldn't let gooo of me
95.i like things to be done quickly,
geez..such an instant generation
96.cynical and skeptical, something i would and wouldn't
97.stoopidly pacified
easy to be pleased,,too easy sometimes
98.a growing bud? i'm nurturing a future me
99.perfectly imperfect perfection trying to be perfectionist,
or just trying so
100.boys a/be-ware!
no you don't need sign for that
i'm glad a finally found a suitable one :)

2nd Trim

SECOND TRIMESTER IS COMPLETELY DONE. I'm in the middle of my holiday while writing this. let me sum up what happened when i still have these memories in mind.

the trimester started without myrda, she is now a stewardess.

we had a sensitivity training at kinasih. one of many interesting thing we've been through. the session is all about sharing your point of view, your background and etc. its about active listening as well and you'll get your feedback. a closer bound and a better understanding among others is your result. but its also a chance to start new, be better and wiser which is very hard to do in just one night.

we had "class meeting" a sport competition against each batch. no myrda means sucks percussion. i can't replace her as the command of cheering session. and i lost on ddr, yay me.

company surveys, each company for each class except financial management. operational management, marketing management, and human resource management. this is the thing that made me lose contact with reality. i even forget life sucks balls and that boys had em..
other than group assignments, I'm mediocre in tests! i feel really stoopid this trimester. ~~"

we held career days, though I'm not part of the committee but tis all good. free lunch xP
and yea that cute IT boy with his suit is a nice thing to see *hint hint* his name is hereee,,

i was a program manager of marketing battle through advertising. and also replacing Rilla as MC, yay. tireeeeed. but fun :D i get to know people i didn't. a lot of surprises but one thing i learn the most here is that you should never underestimate the power of hope and faith!

the whole class is really hating this one! i just laugh. it was meant to be a marketing day. but umm yah well go ask THAT faculty member, mr. AG of his definition of marketing day. i assume he mistaken it as seminar. but more important for me is that makeover i made to Icha :D she was celebrity of the day. god I'm so talented xP

exam exam went away like crazy. unforgettable final financial management where my laptop dies on me! wtf?! and all I've studied gooone gone like *poof*

time of celebration, r*ckstar night, had to use my talent again haha screwing people up. well i contributed my service at least. make ups, wardrobes, even hair dos. mmh mmh meh. we sang, head banged, screamed, and jumped around like nuts. there was a little rave and body slamming,,boys.

no no it doesn't end there. i still have to do some make up for Christmas eve. so much that I've done i should be getting paid from now on. but I'm generous lol.

and last but not least. BUSINESS PLAN team. it screws everyone. the thing is mean, its like natural selection. unfriendly to those bad genes without surviving potential,,including me. gladly its settled, all we have to think of isss the topic -now that i decided on finance major- wee!